I write, therefore I am.

Except I'm not all that much a writer.

I write awesome stories.

Unfortunately, I've never found a great way to get to those pesky sections. Like the end. And the middle.

It's actually quite annoying. I've had great ideas, but because I can't get past the beginning of pretty much every one, I know have about 50 great story idea beginnings. Worst part is, a lot of times I'll find my idea has been used in the time after I start.

For instance, God, Inc. It's funny. I wish I had thought of it first...oh wait, I did. But that's what I get. I got about ten pages in, and hit the wall. Pretty much like I always do.

It's actually pretty frustrating. Because a pretty huge part of me knows I'm a writer. But a small part of me is a rational person and knows that I have to actually write to be a writer. I know what you're thinking. "But Bart, what do you think you're doing right now?" I'm talking doing it for a living. Or at least as a lucrative side job. Not trying to explain to people how I got my current job with an English degree. Heh.

But I think the most frustrating part is that I'm having problems even starting anything even if I get one of my awesome ideas, because I think, "oh why bother, you're gonna hit that wall." Pretty self defeating, but hey, the whole kit and kaboodle here is a self defeation problem. I think I made up a word right there.